Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Worth?

I am a type of person that doesn't need the spotlight. I don't do fancy stuff just to be recognized by the "big bosses". I don't do "things" just to please them. I execute my work through my best effort and with all my knowledge. I don't let "them" make a puppet out of me. From Day 1, I never worked for fame.


Three years. Three years. What should I be thankful for? I am not blaming anyone. I chose this. I decided to stay. I had hopes (which are all, by the way, gone now). There were a lot of if's but yeah, I stayed. I believed. I believed... *sigh*


On the other hand, "this" provided me a (somehow) solid foundation to my career. I learned. I became more mature. I gained knowledge with the help of SOME people around me but other than that, thank you to me that I learned those things (I am not bragging or anything, its just reality).


HOWEVER, since I was able to gain something, I needed to face these consequences (which I think and I believe should not be happening). I (We) need to fix every Government-mandated contributions (which is supposedly the responsibility of "them").


But wait, there's more!!! After three years, "they" ceased their operations AND another "them" was opened which we are obliged to be part of it. And since "them" is no longer "they", all the responsibilities of "they" were no longer shouldered by "them". That is the reason why I (We) need to personally make the follow ups on everything related to "they".


Three years... Three years...


Now, I wanted to escape. I don't want to be used. I DO NOT WANT TO BE USED AGAIN.


I'm sorry if this entry is not organized. I have a lot of things in mind. I just needed to let this out.